Building an extension and trying to scrimp ad save by undertaking the work inside yourself, is exhausting. Combine that with deadline to get as much as possible finished because the bank is coming over to check that you deserve a helping hand with the build...and you get two worn out, battered and bruised people.
Jason now has a frozen and very painful shoulder and after a nasty fall, I have managed to damage the ligaments in my knee which seem to be taking an AGE to heal.
Christmas was a welcome break, but busy. Hosting Christmas dinner for 14 and more guests coming over in the evening, meant we were on our feet from dawn until around 11pm.
Now the Birthday season is upon us, with all 4 family birthdays happening over the next 5 weeks.
The constant motion makes it easy to just plough on, without ever really stopping and smelling the daisies. But my knee has meant that I have had to stop over the last few weeks and with that I have realised that I am a last priority on my own list and that doesn't really bode well for my family.
I don't look after myself, I have been ill pretty much on and off since October yet I still plough on as if I am superhuman.
But i'm not.
So this year, I am making a commitment. I am committed to be kinder to myself. To think about my needs and communicate these when people try and fill my days with their needs. If I haven't married you or given birth to you - chances are over the next six months, I will say 'I need to think about it' if you ask something of me. Because these people that I love are getting the remnants of what is left of me and that is not fair, not on them and not on me.
I am committed to be kinder to my body. To feed it and nourish it properly and lead a healthier lifestyle.
I am committed to be more open and communicate my needs better, instead of pretending that I don't have any needs, so as not to be hindrance.
I am committed to be more open and honest and transparent, including in my struggles because I believe that is where true friendship is grown.
And I think that is quite a good start.